too caffeinated to sleep

& i don’t want to blog.
i feel like ppl are reading this blog who have no idea what it means (meant?) to me when i most need(ed) an outlet.
i feel like i’m censoring myself,
silencing myself so i don’t step on anyone’s hypersensitive, bitchmade, i’m-gonna-cry-wolf toes.
that most certainly felt better than holding it in. there, i’ve said it: there are folks who subscribe to rss feeds of this very slice of interwebs who’d rather pick fights than love themselves
who’d rather assume the mantle of victimhood than fashion themselves into survivors
& who always think someone’s out to fucking get them simply by disagreeing w/ them. stupid, i know.
& even more stupid: i let that shit hold me back.
gloves are off.
sensitive thugs, y’all all need hugs.
but don’t come the fuck over here with it.
yay, i made a cryptic blog post. fiqah, are you happy now? :-P it’s a post. it is. even if it’s only significant to ME. bit by bit, i’m coming back.

2 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Fiqah
    Mar 25, 2010 @ 09:38:57

    Sugar booger, I am ALWAYS happy to read whatever little piece of anything you write. I feel like this: people are gonna watch you. They are. You’re absolutely riveting, so even if you don’t engage them directly, fokes are gonna stalk, and they’re gonna lurk, and they’re gonna sit in the shadows of all that sparkle you throw out and just be miserable. And you know what? Fuck ’em. This space you made – for YOUR healing – has become a healing space for sooooo many others, yours truly included, as evidenced by all the comments and offline dialogue. Your growth as a spurrit continues to astound me and make me proud. Don’t let nobody stop your go.

    Seriously. No. Damn. Body.


  2. omi
    Mar 31, 2010 @ 06:02:11

    *holy ghost stomp* tell it, fiqah!


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